I'd like to talk about something that's been on my mind for a while, I have posted about on Twitter and talked about it more in depth on Tumblr, but I will write about it on here too. Again, no surprise, it's about DEPRESSION and emotions. Gah, I'm sorry, just skip down to the photos if you'd like, but again this is my blog and I can post what I want so I shall now start my little rant/theory/thoughts, ha.
I have a friend who's name I'd rather not mention, but her mother has just passed away. And it out of nowhere, no disease, no warning. This, it breaks my heart into pieces. I as a person am already sort of broken inside, but I try so hard to be happy, and I've definitely succeeded in these past few weeks! When I hear things like this it makes me realize that I am at the height of arrogance for getting angry or sad at someone because they hurt me. It's ridiculous. I am ridiculous. I am consumed with feelings of loneliness and I can't help it but I have a home, a family, a business. Not many friends, but I can deal. I had one best friend who I've lost but shit happens. Without trust there's nothing, right? Or are all those corny Twitters and Tumblrs just bullshitting me? It just sucks man. I would be devastated if my mother were to pass.
Please please be happy, do it for me. I will be happy for myself, I will no longer be sad, I will continue to be happy as I am and have been. I had a vivid dream a few nights ago about my life almost being snatched away from me without any warning and I wasn't able to say goodbye to anyone I knew or tell others how I really felt. Nothing. I had nothing and I left. It was terrible. Ever since I had that dream, I've learned that attitude is so important in life. You're thrown into situations right? Like ultimatums and consequences. You don't have a choice for those, but you do have a choice on what kind of attitude you'd have for that day, week, minute, second. Be wise, choose carefully between the two because it could make the difference for you and those wonderful beings surrounding you. Okay I'm done. This has just affected me so much I couldn't help it.
Seriously though, be happy :)
Try to mend all the holes in your life, it's NEVER too late. I hope that didn't ruin your day haha so with that being said, have a wonderful day!!!!!!!
Lavender velvet dress - Miracle Eye
Net kimono - DIY
Silver platforms (which I later found out were JC knock offs!!!!) - $25 from eBay
Yin yang earrings and velvet choker - Etsy
Silver cross ear cuff - Miracle Eye